However, all I need to do is to reflect on the current situation and the despair melts away. Catholicgauzette is working with a development group in Kenya. The NGO she is working for has a positive track record and she can only amplify their good works. I will one day be reunited with her. My physical and mental pain no where matches those of the saints, soldiers, and innocents caught up in war. My time alone is a time for reflection, a time to give thanks for everything that I have.
Once I publish this post I will go back to preparing for Afghanistan. This time not in despair but with thoughts of thanks and the promise of the future.